Saturday, 20 March 2010

J's Top Ten EA Tracks

Because I am currently in the middle of a complete obsession with Emilie Autumn, I thought I'd try and choose my ten favourite songs by this legendary gothic mad-girl. I love everything she has ever done, so it will be really hard to narrow it down to such a small number!

I had an enjoyable Emilie-rave with Terra the other day, and so I thought it might be an idea to make a blog-post about EA's music anyway.

Note: these are my favourite EA tracks at this one time, and I'm sure it won't be long before they change again!

So, here goes, in no particular order...


1) Opheliac
This has been one of my favourite EA songs for ages. When I first heard the album Opheliac, this opening track was the one that immediately stood out to me. I cannot fault it. Every time I listen to it, I feel an emotional reaction. When I put it on I want to scream along with the chorus, hair flying wildly. It is just BEAUTIFUL. Its structure is mind-blowing: the subtle harpsichord entrance is rather ambiguous -- either an upbeat or a melancholy song could follow it -- and the strings buried beneath the chorus are absolutely sublime, particularly contrasted with the power of the lyrics. Throw in a few lines from Shakespeare's Hamlet, a few industrial beats and a poem about girls in society and you have a real masterpiece within EA's body of work.

2) Liar
Liar is a track that becomes better with each listening. It's an incredibly gutsy song, and I've discovered (today, in fact!) that when I'm angry there is literally no better song to help me. I read somewhere that EA intended this song to be related to by any fan who has ever had the urge to scream "LIAR!" in someone's face, and I think most of us can relate to that. This is a fabulous song because Emilie combines her furious violin-playing, screaming and heavy industrial beats with lyrics that still manage to be poetic. I'm also really enjoying the four mixes of Liar on EA's Liar/Dead is the New Alive EP. My favourite one is probably Angelspit's Medical Mix, which I'm rather addicted to. Excellent stuff.

3) Misery Loves Company
It sounds like it's going to be depressing, but actual this song really cheers me up! It's so much fun to sing along with, particularly the bridge: "Do I need you? Yes and no. Do I want you? Maybe so." When it's performed live, the Crumpets incorporate umbrellas into the dancing, and it's all rather fun. There's something quite liberating in the idea of all these crazy inmates prancing about on stage appreciating each others' misery. And it's OK, because we're all different!

4) 4 o'Clock
This is another EA track that I have listened to over and over without getting bored in the slightest. The tune is simple, haunting and beautiful. The industrial beats are spine-tingling. The subject-matter is compelling; indeed, in The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls Emilie writes about her experiences of living with bipolar disorder and the constant state of waking up at four in the morning when entering into a manic or a depressive phase. Without being vague, this song sounds like EA's book feels. They compliment each other really well. It's such an amazing song, and when it was performed live--attached to Best Safety Lies in Fear--I thought I was going to die from being overwhelmed with its sheer brilliance!

5) Chambermaid (Space Mix)
I love Enchant, because of its beautiful classical violin combined with gorgeous lyrics, but I REALLY love this mix of one of its stand-out tracks. How can you make an EA track more exhilarating? Mix it up! I love how it builds, and offers nearly seven minutes of high-speed Elizabethan epic-win. I love how it starts with one of my favourite lines, "You have no hold over me," and finishes with one of my favourite lines, "Turn around before I have to see this face I once adored." It's a really polished, faultless mix. I love it so much! xD

6) Dead is the New Alive (Manipulator Mix by Dope Stars Inc.)
I love the original, of course, but this is a mix that, in my opinion, improves on the ordinary version. It adds real power and depth to the song, and anyone who has seen EA live will want to shout "FIGHT!" in the appropriate places. It's a fantastic mix, it suits any mood, and it's full of guts. I have no more to add on the subject!

7) Ever
Given that I generally prefer EA's heavy industrial stuff, it may seem surprising that I'm an enormous fan of this long, sultry piano ballad. I think the piano is just beautiful, and the verse that begins quietly and heart-wrenchingly with "Well I could paint your portrait if I never saw you again" melts me into the ground every single time. I guess the hopeless romantic in me loves the line "I never told you I needed you, darling, like a rose needs the rain." I make no apologies for my occasionally soppy tendencies! Emilie's voice is on particularly good form on this song, and the piano is beautiful, and it's just generally lovely. I like the bit in the booklet of Enchant where EA explains why "ever" is such a beautiful word. Brilliant stuff. :)

8) Let The Record Show
This is a ridiculously catchy and wonderfully dark song, and when EA performed it live (which I was not expecting) I got so excited! I sang along at the top of my voice :) I just love it. It's a fantastic closing track for Opheliac, too. The way that the album finishes with "... don't waste my time" and then falls into silence seems like an ironically abrupt end to a jam-packed album. I guess you could read lots into that powerful silence about suicide, but I'm not EA so I'm not going to try! A really fantastic song.

9) My Fairweather Friend
I really like this one at the moment! I guess it's because it makes a refreshing change for an EA song to use the guitar. I like how the song's tune (happy on first listen, but with a less happy edge) reflects the idea of the subject of the song, who is happy to be around when times are good but not so much in other times. I can imagine Emilie, and many people struggling with severe mental illness, will have had a few such "fairweather friends," as indeed many of us do. It's when times are hardest that we know who our true friends really are. This is a nice song to listen to between Emilie's "bigger" songs. I appreciate it very much!

10) Heard It All
This is one of my favourite songs from Enchant. I'm not sure why I like this one so much, as it doesn't seem to be one of the "stand-out tracks" (I suppose songs like Chambermaid and What If would be more predictable). I guess I like the beat to it--which reminds me of some of the old artists that I listen to and love--and the lyrics ("I can't fall because you'll try and catch me"), which are darker than many of the other lyrics on Enchant. It's personal, and you can read into it in so many ways. It's sung with such impatience and you see the first (if tiny) glimpses of the fierce stuff to come... A lovely song!

Ok, I've reached number ten! It's annoying to have to leave so many wonderful songs out, but this is just an idea of where I am with Emilie Autumn at the moment and which songs I'm particularly loving right now.

With Love,

J xxx

p.s. I've just watched The Kite Runner. I read the novel about eighteen months ago and loved it, but the intricacies of the plot went a bit hazy in my mind, so it was great to watch the film. If it doesn't bring a tear to your eye you must have a hard heart ! The film reminds us why we must try and obliterate violence and oppression (the scene in which a woman is stoned to death in a bloodstained burkha is possibly one of the most difficult scenes I have put myself through) and the importance of correcting past wrongs for the benefit of the next generation. It's also a beautifully made film: I definitely recommend it! :)

Saturday, 13 March 2010

More Emilie Autumn

Last night, I had the privilege of seeing EA in the flesh at the Islington 02 Academy. This was an extremely exciting experience for me, even though it went slightly wrong (!). Earlier this week, I finished The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls, and so I thought this would be the perfect opportunity to ramble about Emilie! I'm going to talk about the book first, then the concert. xD

The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls

When I got my hands on this beautiful hardback book for the first time, I thought the excitement would kill me! It's been eagerly-awaited for quite some time, and so it was wonderful to hold it, having previously had tantalising tasters on Emilie's 4 o'Clock EP. The novel is a work of art, decorated with photographs, drawings and handwriting. Even if the writing itself wasn't fantastic, the book would be worth having just as beautiful object to behold. I am particularly fond of the beautiful paintings of mentally disturbed leeches and the amusing "Killjoy's Corsets" drawing.

The story itself is wonderful; a clever mixture of Victorian gothic literature and modern-day psychological study. Interspersed with the entries of EA in her modern Hollywood mental institute and Emily-with-a-'y' in the Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls are three diaries in which manic-depressive EA explores the darkest of issues and taboos: suicide, self-harm, personality-altering medication. My favourite of these diaries is her Cutting Diary, in which Emilie rationally explains why she sliced her thighs and why she no longer does: be prepared to have your misconceptions turned on their heads.

The writing is beautiful: elegant, engaging and sometimes even hypnotic (rather like EA's speaking voice, indeed!). There are inconsistencies--which is perhaps not surprising given that Emilie has put the whole thing together herself--such as obvious Americanisms in the Victorian parts of the novel, which are supposed to be written by an English girl, and there are lots of typos and spelling mistakes. However, I found that this didn't frustrate me in the slightest. In fact, the book has a real sense of character: it has come from Emilie and reflects her personality. It is not over-edited or perfect, and somehow it wouldn't work if it was; it's an organic and very human piece of work. It is difficult to separate reality from fiction throughout the novel, which is technically autobiographical, but this adds an element of confusion that reflects EA's 'education and entertainment' purposes marvellously. This book will make you think, and it may even make your head spin. It certainly made me cry!

An excellent read. I can't wait to read it again!


Emilie Autumn's Asylum Tour, Islington 12/03/2010

Standing near to the stage with my friends and gazing at the beautiful stage-set, I felt the excitement racing through me. The time seemed to go so slowly while I waited for EA and her Bloody Crumpets to enter the stage. When they finally did, and EA emerged from behind the clock-face at the back of the stage, I found myself wiping tears of emotion away from my eyes. I had a fantastic time singing along to 4 o'Clock, Opheliac, The Art of Suicide and Shallot, as well as watching Contessa introduce the Bloody Crumpets and EA have a 'moment alone' with the audience.

Unfortunately, after the Naughty Veronica's lovely burlesque routine, I started to find myself fainting from dehydration, hunger and overheating. I pushed my way out of the crowd, and collapsed onto my knees at the side of the stage. A kind security guard came and took me into a corridor just as God Help Me started. I drank about three glasses of water, then attempted to push my way back into the crowd, only to find that I felt ill again. A kind medic checked my pulse and gave me more water. It was decided that I couldn't be allowed back inside the claustrophobic crowd in front of the stage, so I was taken upstairs in a lift and sat down at the back of the balcony, watching Veronica and EA introduce the 'Rat Game' on a screen. After being given a free coke and having a little lie down during Misery Loves Company (and it was a bloody shame I had no company at this point because I was miserable to be missing one of my favourite songs. I took a peek at the umbrella-dance going on below and immediately had to lie down again), I started to feel better and watched an electric violin piece, Dead is the New Alive, Bohemian Rhapsody, Thank God I'm Pretty and Let The Record Show from the corner of the balcony, singing along loudly and gazing upon EA's beautiful form from above!
I was delighted to be able to enjoy the rest of the gig, and in the end I didn't miss a huge amount at all. My throat was hurting from singing so loudly by the end, and I met up with my friends fairly easily after emerging from the balcony.

It was AMAZING to see the wonderful Emilie Autumn in the flesh, and I will definitely go again next time she's in the UK. There is, however, a moral to the story: Do not go to gigs without water and food. Especially if you're J and you're sensitive to such things! xD

"WHAT is the new alive?!?"

J xxx


Saturday, 6 March 2010

Sexuality and Stereotyping


Bryan Safi's latest That's Gay segment on Infomania, while as hilarious as ever, has got me thinking about the ways in which people are judged on the basis of their sexualities.

There are certain expectations and stereotypes that apply to everyone in society, from straight girls, who are expected to live up to the double-standard of being 'pure' and 'sexy' at the same time (see Jessica Valenti's writings), to gay men, who are expected to be 'fun.' Anyone close to me knows how pissed off I get with the idea of the 'gay best friend.' As Terra and I were discussing the other day, whilst watching That's Gay together, words such as 'flamboyant,' 'fun' and 'wild' are often used interchangeably with 'gay' in rather euphemistic way.

It's extremely messed-up, and no one is immune from stereotyping and uncalled-for judgement. Celebrity culture doesn't exactly help: women, especially, are ripped apart in the media for being too sloppy and therefore 'ugly' or too falsely beautiful. According to the magazines, female celebrities are too fat, too thin, too fake, too real, overdressed, underdressed, too pale, too orange, too attention-seeking, too reclusive. All of this is linked to sexuality because, all-too-often, female celebrities exist as heterosexual sex-symbols, and this is extremely difficult to pull off in a sick society with a double-standard for its women.

We live in a society where a particular sexuality is immediately inferred from a person's appearance. Of course, stereotyping wouldn't exist if it didn't have at least a small foundation in reality, but today's society has such a distinct and therefore damaging idea of how a straight, a gay or a lesbian person looks and acts. We all do it, we all assume: over Christmas I met a woman who I immediately intuited was gay from her appearance, and was later proved right. Around about the same time, I befriended a charming heterosexual girl whose close friends are, for the most part, gay; she assumed that I was straight, presumably because I don't look like I'm going to hop on my motorbike to go and get my twentieth piercing and a trim to my mohican. Stereotyping can hurt, especially in coming out situations: anyone who doesn't fit into a stereotype is going to have a harder time coming out because loved ones won't always see it coming. Equally, those who do appear to fit into society's idea of a gay, bi or transgendered person is more likely to suffer homophobic abuse.

As for Johnny Weir: I think it is really, really sad that America has judged this excellent skater so much on his 'flamboyancy.' Weir's sexuality is, like for most people, an intrinsic part of his identity, and should not be scrutinised by the public. Those who dislike Weir because of his lack of 'masculinity' should go and consider their own prejudices, and think about the negative effect of stereotyping in our sick world.

Hooray for Bryan :)

J xxx